oh well, till now oso din hear anything from anyone.. guess nobody's reading anyway.. ^_^
anyhow, this sunday will be a special day (by me).. haha.. it shall mark the beginning of a period of time where i'll disappear from the surface of Earth.. NO! i'm not gonna end my own life.. juz gonna commit "social suicide".. meaning from sunday on, i shan't be going out wif anyone le.. dunno how long but guess shd be abt/at least 3mths ba.. Yes, anyone includes my good frens n bros alike.. reason for doing this:
for the past few mths, felt tat my life has been collapsing, like the global economy.. juz tat all economies still got their govts to bail them out, but i cant even hope to have one.. perhaps the only way out is to learn how to live by myself alone.. this way, maybe i'll be more independent n have no more expectations on the pple ard me.. juz as wat WeiBaoBao said, no expectations, no disappointments.. really din wish to reach this situation de n i'm oso unwilling de.. but things have come to the point where i keep telling myself "maybe things wud be different the next time" but things juz happen over n over again.. n now, i juz feel so powerless, helpless n hopeless.. perhaps the 1st mistake was allowing myself to compromise.. till the point when i dun even recognise myself anymore..
for the near future, i juz hope tat my bros n good frens take good care of themselves..
*f***!! my eyes starting to well up again*