back!!! actually i forgot to include sth during my last update, so now come back to do it... some more, juz read my chibi's blog... seems real sad... think sth has happened at home ba...
1st thing 1st... the thing i forgot abt was tat dream i had, think was on sat nite ba (or was it fri??? dun think it matters)... anyways, i dreamt abt reading the IVP bowling team list n i saw chibi's name in it... find it rather weird tat i actually dreamt abt such a thing but i dare not doubt my premonitions... they tend to be accurate to a certain extent... haha... i wud oso be very happy if he did manage to get into uni ba...
okie, tat's abt all for the overlooked part... now to the main purpose... dunno wat happened recently cos u oso din really tell me a lot... but think u being a bit pessimistic for ur age... humans r very fragile wan... much like a flame in the wind *sounds old*...the meaning of life shd be to burn wif the brightest intensity, making this short span of time on earth worthwhile... however, this intensity can only be increased if u truly noe wat u want... for instance, my life-long wish is to have a few true n best frens... they wud be the ones tat wud define the fullness to my life... tat's y i try my very best to make each n every frenship work out, helping my frens out along the way n oso learning from them... i noe i always say tat i dun expect myself to live past 50 but tat's cos i feel tat i have found the good frens tat i want in u, weibao n L... there r oso other frens whom i wun forget cos they have been ard whenever i needed them... now the qn to u is wat's ur definition of life... remem the qn i asked u??? reason i asked u to give me an answer was cos i din expect u to come across things tat wud invoke such sad feelings in u...
karma isnt really a bad thing... is juz tat it's always used in a very bad way tat pple think of it as retribution... to me, karma comes in both ways, good n bad... a good deed wud beget another good one... of cos, same thing applies in the opposite way... however, if we keep living life apprehensive of karma, then nth can be done ba... to me, juz do watever u think u shd, as long as u r fair to urself n others... as long as it doesnt directly harm urself or others, juz go ahead n do it... life's short n time shd not be spent over thinking abt wat ifs n wat could have been... living each day to the fullest is my best way of making my flame glow wif the brightest intensity in the world... tat's y i always try to keep my good frens close to me...
if u still feel sad after u read this, call me out for a tok lor... u r my chibi n i'm supposed to be always ard for u ma... touched??? haha... juz joking... but honestly, as a fren n ur aniki, i wud wish u could confide in me abt such matters ba... unless u said u treated me like ur gor for fun lor... u still have quite a long way before the candle runs out of wax, so this is not the time to be put down by such negative feelings... every experience is an opportunity to learn sth... learning how to be strong, how to face ur true self, how to treat ur frens; the list juz goes on n on... for u, the main priority is still ur studies now ba... i noe u noe this but if u still cant sort things out, then i wud always be more than happy to listen to ur probs... hope to hear from u soon or at least c u happier...
Enjoying life need not be on a tangible level... Intangible assets, such as frenship, love, family, tend to be more valuable than everything else in this world... Cherish each n every rship n u wud be basking in the joy of being loved by others...