hihi!!! back again!!! haha... din expect singtel to be so efficient to connect my line as soon as i paid up... haha... well, below r a couple of blogs i wrote while the connection was down... here goes...

Been a very long time since my last update? a certain matter made me cut the connection temporarily n this is an update I wrote while the connection was down? juz had some feelings I felt I needed to put down?
1stly, been busy wif my job at bureau veritas as chem engineer... though the pay's quite good, beginning to question it's worth it, wif all the overtime i need to do... haiz... the environment still ok la... but then the travelling time is horrendous... 1.5hrs every trip is taking its toll on me... now oso very little time left to do my own things... but shall stick to this for a while 1st ba...
this was kinda "plagued" wif matters that has been causing very serious tsunamis in my mood... maybe i'm juz too tired but i feel tat i'm getting upset over things which i tried not to be too concerned abt... breaking tat resolution really bit back at me... guess i juz care too much for the pple dear to me ba... when tat care goes down the drain, my mood goes wif it as well... been telling myself, i've got to try to keep to my resolution but it juz aint working... haiz... can anyone teach me how to???
havent met my "chibi" ever since i started working... kinda miss those times we spent together... but i guess there r more impt things for him to c to at this point in time ba... juz hoping maybe we could meet over this weekend ba... at least i'll get to noe he's doing fine...
well, this update is more of a complain n whine update ba... juz wanted to release all these bottled up feelings la... n if anyone reads this, thanks... else i guess this has become the dump for my moods ba... will try to get the connection back at the end of this month ba... till then, praying tat my frens all take good care of themselves...
(friday, 19 may 2006, 2.52am)
guess things have taken a turn for the worse in recent times... find myself drifting further from my loved ones... though i hold them dear, juz dun have the opportunity to spend time wif them... either i'm bz or they r... juz dunno wat i can do to salvage this awful situation... everyday juz hoping pple wud look me up but alas, all is not to be... feeling down wif the passing of each day... think if this carries on, life wud be the same as the past ba... loneliness n solitude again... haiz... though i tried abandoning them throughout my life, juz cant seem to shake them off... guess they r truly my best frens, never leaving me all this time... haiz... praying sth good wud happen soon ba... but since this update wun be up till i get my connection back, guess life's not gonna change much from here on ba... can only try to occupy myself wif work lor...
(tuesday, 23 may 2006, 2.35am)

back to the present... today was pay-day!!! haha... not too bad... the company actually paid me in lieu of the 2 days i worked b4 may... well, today was the last day bosco (my senior) was ard... tml will be the test for me n my remaining colleague... have to cope wif the workload among ourselves le... hopefully everything will turn out rite ba...
mood was kinda down n up today... mainly cos suddenly pple started asking me out... perhaps all this was meant to happen at the point where i begin to lose myself again ba... these few weeks kinda breezed by n i sorta felt lonely again ba... pple i wud wish to meet seemed to be shunning me time n again... then felt i oso needed to leave my chibi to study for his exams after the hols... when i felt everything was coming to an end, hopes juz flickered for a few moments then they juz faded into the darkness... then another ray of light shone... thankfully this time it lasted longer... long enuf to rid me of those feelings of despair... haha... (think only 2 pple wud understan wat i toking abt ba... hahaha...)
well, tat's all for now... will be back to continue a healthy update of my personal blog... all my treasured ones, pls take care of urselves, as there's juz lesser n lesser time for us to spend together... tata~