*poof* haha... trying a bit of self-entertainment... c whether it wud cheer me up a bit... well, dun think it works... good try though... haha... think i'm getting hallucinations recently ba... trying ways n means to make my myself happy... toking to myself even... haha... guess sanity is sth tat can be lost ba... WAHAHA...
well, for the most part of today, i've been slping... having very late nites recently... wondering n worrying abt stuff... think it doesnt really pay to care at all ba... this is the feeling tat i've been getting from others of late... perhaps i got myself a new year resolution liao... haha... think it wud make life easier for me n others as well...
if i recall correctly, someone has asked me to be juz a fren wif no strings attached at all... back then, i lost it completely... cos i juz cared too much... but now, perhaps is my turn to ask everyone i truly treasure this: wud things be better if our paths din meet??? or wud it be even better if other paths dun meet anymore??? painful but realistic qns, i think... having the habit of asking qns tat will never be answered by anyone ba... haha... however the answer is juz too impt to me... y??? cos this is how i define frens: pple who truly care for one another... such a simple definition n yet not many pple have been able to satisfy it... hahaha... well guess this shd be all for this year's updates liao... even wondering whether i shd continue this next year...