loneliness has beset me for the past few days... think is cos tat incident on thurs nite (or fri morn)... i feel tat i've lost sth in my life... though i wud wish it wasnt true, the person shd be very angry wif me ba... dunno whether it's intentional anot... but receiving no reply at all from the sms i sent out, really adds on the pain... i guess i was juz not cut out to be able to handle rships wif anyone ba... perhaps i shd stop doing anymore damage than wat i have for now... decided to juz leave things alone, not to involve actively anymore... maintaining rships has juz gotten me hurt over n over, till the point where i feel like ending my own life n yet i continue to try... but end of the day, i juz feel damn freaking tired n so hurt tat i really have lost my sense of feeling... to me now, life is but a corpse walk... juz waiting for the day when time juz runs out on me... to tat person, i'm really really sorry for watever i have or have not been able to do... whether i'm forgiven is no longer the issue anymore... there's no meaning to life anymore from where i stand now...