haiz... much as i expected, it was all my own wishful thinking... thinking tat some pple r my frens when they dun really think so... thinking tat everything is ok when it isnt... thinking tat i can accept certain things when i cant... all this has led me nowhere but deeper into the gorge... well, at least i've been keeping to most of my decisions so far... to me now, it doesnt really matter whether i lose my timing again anymore... it shd not have mattered in the beginning... i tot it wud be easy to make more frens in this sport but guess i was wrong... it was easy to noe more pple but feel tat athletes dun make good frens ba... taking a step back from everyting, i begin to c y i'm in this state now...
Acceptance simply means tolerance... it doesnt mean to condone...