as i'm writing this blog, my emotions start to run out of my control... losing my temper very easily... think i'm gonna lose my sanity soon... dun even the reason for this stupid run of emotions... was at the balcony juz now... looking down i was wondering how nice it wud be to jump down from there... might as well juz end everything once n for all... haiz... dunno y i'm so easily beaten by my emotions... dunno y i'm having suicidal thoughts... suddenly life juz seems like a meaningless ride... looking back, i find nth has been accomplished tat i can say i'm proud of anymore... losing too many things, too many pple... though i try to treat every rship as preciously as i could, the results r always the opposite... y the hell is this world so diff to live in!!! now even thinking of giving up bowling once n for all oso... haiz... so wat if i'm able to bowl well??? nth good has ever come out of it... every now n then , i juz get more n more upset... sometimes to the extent of regreting i ever took up the sport... haiz...
Drinking has never been able to drown any sorrows... it juz makes everything feel worse... tat's wat i'm feeling now...