super sian!!! paper today certainly extinguished all my hopes of getting at least 1 A liao... haiz... guess can only blame myself ba... blame myself for trying to solve the probs at the wrong time... haiz... blame myself for not keeping to my resolution 2yrs ago... ME!!! ME!!! ME!!! cant even find the mood to study for fragrance chem... haiz... din even eat anything besides breakfast today... guess after this, i'm juz gonna slp without eating ba... haiz... so sad n disappointed now, cant even bring myself to feel at least a bit happier...
went to BP for a few games but din even have mood to bowl properly... juz throwing ball all over... haiz... wat has happened??? never gonna have an answer... oh well, least they tried to tok to me but alas, i juz cant compromise my feelings now... i dun think it is fine to pretend nth has ever happened n juz continue to be frenly to everyone... haiz... is my definition so wrong??? or izzit too high??? can i compromise those expectations??? wud i??? so many qns but no answers at all... when i was on the bus leaving BP, i suddenly realised the whole place juz seemed so unfamiliar... i dunno wat i can do now or wat i shd do now... there r answers tat i want but i noe i will never get them ever... tat's wat hurts most ba... but wat can i do??? NTH!!! juz wallowing in my own sorrows now...
When hope runs dry, the heart begins to whither as well... nourishment for the heart is very difficult to find n thus, the heart would eventually die one day... think tat day would soon be here...